After 3 1/2 years of blog silence I'm back to the blog world. So much has happened in a meantime that it’s only fair that I start with a new blog. I doubt anyone remembers me but I would like to apologize for disappearing without a trace. My comeback to the blog world not accidentally coincides with my comeback to the IVF world. It looks like I can’t TTC without blogging. However, this time I feel a bit lost and not sure where I belong.
3 1/2 years ago we learned that IVF #1 worked and despite the rough start to the pregnancy, and very nerve wrecking 9 months we had our son, who is the love of our lives. My heart still skips a bit every time I look at him and realize what a miracle he is. Skip forward 3 years and we back to TTC square one. With one frozen cycle (FET) that resulted in miscarriage at 5 weeks and one frozen cycle that resulted in a negative, we are back to the IVF world. In my heart I always had doubts whether I will ever be able to go through all the emotional and physical demands of IVF, but here we go again. I do feel more mature this time around. Being through early loss and BFN, I feel like I’ve seen it all. At the same time, I’m tormented by some of the old debates, to tell or not to tell that we are cycling.
Bottom line, I’m back to blogging to keep me sane while going through IVF in the unfair world full of unwanted babies and eager infertile parents.
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