I have been reading blogs of other people to get back in touch with blog community and I feel really lost. I feel like I don’t know where I belong. It looks like most of the people in the IF blog world either still trying for their first baby or just had their miracle babies. As for me, although I’m planning for IVF, I have been blessed with my beautiful son, so I feel somewhat guilty barging into blogs of the former bloggers, while not particularly eager to read the blogs of the latter bloggers either. I want this child no less than someone else that is trying for their first but I in my heart I know that it feels different. I’m still to stumble upon anyone’s blog who TTC#2 with any form of ART. I wonder whether having one child but still struggling with IF somehow puts me outside of the IF blog community?
As for IVF: I’m still waiting on clinic’s decision on the funds to help us finance IVF#2. It was supposed to be around 4 weeks until clinic makes a decision, it’s been 3 and ½ and no decision yet. This waiting drives me crazy; my brain can’t stop thinking of “what if” we don’t get the funds. On top, I hope that my AF holds off until we get a decision so that we can start right away and not wait for another month. All these things that I can’t control… I hate not to be in control of what’s happening, it makes me feel weak and anxious.
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Don't worry about fitting into the IF blog world, we all have our unique stories and I think if we support one another, that's what counts. Personally, I'm happy to read a story about a couple that successfully had a baby through IVF, it uplifts me and gives me hope - so please do not feel guilty. I hope you find some blogs that you feel connected to and that your IVF funding gets approved soon.
Here from LFCA. I just wrote a post about wanting a second child. IF doesn't go away. I too would like more than one child.
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