Devastated

My HCG went up normally but my progesterone dropped dramatically from 23.3 to 11.2. Gave a call to RE who explained that drop in progesterone usually not a good sign and that even though numbers fluctuate they should not go down by more than 10 units. She put me on progesterone but explained that at this point if it suppose to happen you just prolonging the inevitable. I'm devastated! My brain can't process everything that is happening. I don't understand why give us this chance and then still take it away. I just feel like I don't have enough strength to go through another loss. What's more, it makes me realize that there are other problems that we don't even know about that we need to address. Also, the state program that I was so anxiously waiting for my AF to start I think disqualifies women with 2 prior losses. I can't wrap my head around everything that's happening. I feel like my heart is going to burst.