OMG!

I’m shocked beyond belief! On Monday I went to the clinic to get Provera blood test to see if I Oed last month and if not to jump start my period. Got the most shocking call from the clinic - beta came back at 368! I couldn’t believe my ears. I wasn’t even sure if I Oed in May. I’m to go back to the clinic on Wed for follow up beta. I’m driving myself crazy, trying to analyze this beta number, which seem to be too low judging by my first day of the last period. At the same time, I’m telling myself that my cycles are so irregular that I’m not even sure when I Oed. Based on my past FET experience, I know that it is the increase in beta numbers and not the single beta number that’s important. I’m freaking out about tomorrow’s follow up beta because I know how important it is. I'm trying to stay positive but not too optimistic. I can’t stop thinking all the negative thoughts and imagine everything that could go wrong.